Monday, October 31, 2011

Witches, ghost busters, a kitty, Tigger, and a hippie

My brother in law, my sister, me and my mom

The hippie is my grandpa and the other witch is my grandma. I have more pictures, but for some reason they didn't upload, and well I am far too lazy to try and re upload them. :) We had so much fun getting together getting all costumized. 


Wednesday, October 26, 2011


They just never go how you plan them!! 

Man,  it is nice being home! These past 5 or 6 days are a blur! I took a 4 day weekend starting on Thursday last week (from my full time job) to get caught up on editing, house work and plan out my diet and really dive into the diet. Well that didn't happen.

Thursday I got a fair amount done, but I spent some time dilly dallying and just enjoying my day off.  Friday I had a photo session, went to lunch, started some editing,  Friday is when my worrying increased about my husband. I knew he was sick for quite some time. I started asking questions, started getting more and more worried. But he had a doctors appointment on Monday so he would tell me " I will just finish out my work week and go to the doctor" well after talking to a couple people and telling them whats going on, and my concerns and how he was looking and acting they said that he should go to the emergency room. I totally agreed with what these people were saying, but at the same time, I could understand where my husband was coming from too.                                                            

On Friday night I just had a feeling  that it was no joke anymore. I was searching for the nurses line, calling his work, telling his co worker to keep a close eye on my hubby, to make sure he wasn't alone for anytime too long in case he passed out. and I just prayed that he would make it through the night  until we made it to the urgent care. They saw him in urgent care right away, they hooked him up to IV's pretty much immediately, they didn't have the capability of giving him the care he needed so they sent us to the emergency room. so we went to ER, he had a cat scan, and talked to different doctors and nurses. They decided he needed to go to the hospital.

 In the ER they did discover that he wouldn't need surgery or anything, that was a huge relief! (well that was before we knew we would be spending 5 days in the hospital. but i suppose I am still glad he didn't need surgery)
 Off to the hospital we went. He got a private room, which was nice. The first night was a rough one. He had 102.8 fever, he threw up, had coughing attacks and up and out of bed every 10 minutes ( I swear) Each day I saw improvement. 

Now that we are home I am just waiting for his energy level to come back up and for his wonderful personality to shine the way it used to. I say used to because he has been dealing with this since June. It started off as a cough, which I think was the first sign of inflammation, then went to his joints then into his digestive system. So I am so excited for him to get back to his 100% self! That we haven't been able to see in a long time! 

I will say this, I feel like going through this with him, and being able to be there for him the entire time really has connected us even more, and bonded us as a family even more. 

coming home


We will get to see our beloved Porkchop again and be at home!!

SO excited!!

 I can't wait!!

 I will be back to blogging soon!

Sunday, October 23, 2011

Hubby hospitalized

As if I haven't been quiet enough here. But now my husband is in the hospital, and I am staying with him. So again... quietness here. Hopefully everything will calm down soon.

Thursday, October 20, 2011


I thought I would give you guys a sneak peak of a mother  & son session I did! This little man cracked me up! He was so cute! He is only two years old and I swear he talked better than me! I was in awe of his vocabulary! I just couldn't get it over it!

I will be back to blogging more frequently soon! I took a 4 day weekend because I am so behind on my photo sessions! So this morning I "juiced" (wondering what that is, and why I am doing it? stay tuned!) and then headed downstairs to start editing! I have completed two (previously started) sessions already this morning. I have quite a few more left but it is only 1:30 and I am feeling great about my accomplishments and my 4 day weekend and how much I will be able to accomplish! I really feel so happy I took this 4 day weekend. I needed it. I was stressed, well ok I still am, but I am feeling better about it all. I have plans and I finally have time to do everything I want to! This makes a happy me! :)

Stay tuned to lots of other things I have been up to! I can't wait to share it all with you guys!

Monday, October 10, 2011

My wifely duties

My wifely duties could really use some clean up/work/tune up. However you want to say it, I need to up my game as a wife.  I need to be better at tending to my husband. He has been feeling not so good for the past month (roughly) his crohns (crohns disease)  seems to be acting up lately, and now all of a sudden he is having a hard time walking, and his joints are really sore and his ankle is swollen and bruised with no injury. I have done some research and it sounds to me like Rheumatoid arthritis. Which happens to go hand in hand with crohns. It is hard to watch your husband walk around like an 80 year old man (I tease) at first, it was fun to tease, and it was a little cute. However, it isn't cute anymore, and has become scary. I don't want to see him in any pain or uncomfortable. I have all of these plans that I want to do. I want to make menu's that we know what he can eat (gluten and dairy free) for breakfast, lunch and dinner, so we can always have those groceries on hand.  I want to research recipes that he will eat so he can bring them to lunch, and not have to refridgerate and heat up food, because he doesn't like that. I want to bake him snacks that he will eat so he can more frequently. I want to clean my house better and more often, I want to take care of myself for him more consistantly and better. I want to be his biggest supporter. I want to take the stress off of him as much as possible.

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I so struggle with balance. OK And a little laziness... I like to be a princess too..
 I typically am an all or nothing kind of gal... and a lot of things get pushed to nothing because only a few things get the "all". I really need to learn balance a LOT better, see I have all these great ideas, and only a few get implemented into my life, and then I change because i want to focus on other things, and then the cycle continues. I think I need to make a daily list and stick to that. And first up on that list is taking care of my husband and making sure his needs are being met, and he isn't stressed out and that he will be on the mend shortly.

Friday, October 7, 2011

Kids + Fall

Fall is one of my favorite times of the year! The beautiful leaves turning, the perfect long sleeve weather, the sun still shining bright, and it just makes you in the mood to start preparing for holidays... well at least for me it does! Fall means football starting, school is in session, shopping! I love the smell of crisp air on fall mornings! OOOH fall I hope you never leave. :) Especially this fall has been in the 70's, just gorgeous!

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I don't think I have told you but every Thursday night we host a growth group at our house through church. I really love it! Two of our very best church friend couples are there with us (along with some other awesome people) And I am just so grateful to have those friendships! They are still developing but I really enjoy them! And I hope that our friendship continues to deepen! I love the way this group inspires me and motivates me to improve my walk with God. I really want to wake up with God every day. I struggle with that so much. I have to leave my house by 5:45. I like to go to bed around 11pm. Do the math.. it just doesn't add up. :) I am someone who when they should go to bed decides to do 10 last minute things that I didn't get done earlier.  I end up going to bed feeling really accomplished, but I end up needing a nap after work. 

My point being is my new (going a little over a year) really inspires me to have a closer walk with God. And I am so excited to implement a plan. Considering I have to wake up so early and a lot of my mornings start with me sleeping through my alarm. I may just wake up start off with prayer and read 1 verse. But that is better than getting up, rushing out the door, and praying in the car. I know what you are thinking ... why not go to bed earlier... hey now! One thing at a time... :) At least that is what I am trying to tell myself. I am QUEEN of  "I am going to bed at 10:15, no later, I wake up at 4:30, I am going to wake up, pray, read the bible, do yoga, get ready for work, get home, do cardio, shower, make dinner clean my house, take my dog for a walk, edit pictures, crochet, sew, and spend time with my husband and read a book every two days" Yep... that is what I plan out... and here is what I implement "wake, up, go to work, edit pictures" LOL. I am trying to slowly change and realize that I may not be able to do everything in my timeline (wow that is a loaded statement... HELLO INFERTILITY and everything else in my llife)  

So do I have a million plans in how I am going to spend more time with God ALL the time? OF COURSE! Am I trying not to be like that and just start with baby steps, one verse a day, after prayer, in the morning... I GUESS. :) Such a struggle not to go CRAZY and then crash and burn and revert back to doing nothing, but clearly that method isn't working... soooooooooooooooooooooooooooo I am hopping off the crazy train, and easing my way in.

hope you all have a fabulous weekend!

I am going on a road trip with my sister! GIRL TALK! :)

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

cranky pants

apparenly those are the pants I put on today. I am so frustrated, irritated and sensitive today. I feel like nobody has faith in me, everyone jumps out ahead of me when I am supposed to be leading. that is frustrating. just because i do it differently doesn't mean its wrong or worse. If you had faith in me you would see I was about to open my mouth a milisecond after you did. I was going through the thought process planning it all out in my head, seeing if others were going to join. Just because you dont like the way my voice is doesn't mean you can take over for me. Just because you fear I am not organized doesn't mean I am not. Because I am. Let me sort it out, don't "save" me let me learn from not being as organized, let me get my own ryhthm down. Just because I am not very vocal about my infertility doesn't mean I dont think about it less than others who struggle. Just because I tell you I have a positive outlook about it doesnt mean I dont need support and have moments of extremely terrifying moments when I see a baby and pray that I will get one too. Just because I seem strong doesnt mean  I always am. Just because I seem so independent doesn't mean I don't need a random hug once in a while or a random touch on the shoulder/back/arm. Just because I tell jokes doesn't mean I'm not sensitive.

Now be nice to me and respect me for who I am before my dog eats you for a snack. :)

ps- I am in such a bad mood I don't care if I capitalized my i's and used bad punctuation and such, but this post helped me relieve some of that so I started to care a little more. 

Monday, October 3, 2011

lately and the next week lately..

This week starting Friday (september 30) kicked off a crazy week for me! I have photo sessions almost every day! I love it. I am so thankful for these opportunities! I wish I could say more but it sounds ridiculously cheesy. I don't want cheesy, I want my real emotions about it portrayed, but sometimes when you are so passionate about it, it comes off cheesy... dont' you think?? 

         I feel bad when people compliment me on my photography. I get so quiet and shy, like a little kid.. when I am by myself I replay the compliment in my head and always cringe and think "oh I probably should have said something, I probably should have kept the conversation going" but I get shy and quiet... I love hearing it, but it just makes me nervous. I think its because it is such a passion of mine, and letting people know that about me scares me. 

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