Saturday, June 30, 2012

12 week bumpdate!

see the little stretch marks on my side? :( but I decided to be real with how I look and not edit them out) 

my husband took these pictures, 'scuse the blurriness, I grabbed him quick before he ran to work. :)

I look soo pale, eeks!

How far along:
 12 weeks! 
How big is baby: The baby is just over 2 inches! About the size of a lime!! This week it is developing reflexes!! :) 
Total weight gain: 5 lbs. I am a little sad about that. but I am hoping now that my sickness is gone and I am getting energy back that I can even out a little more and not gain very much in the second trimester. :) My goal is 5 lbs. My doctor suggested I gain around 20 lbs. I would like to have 10 lbs to gain in the third trimester, because from what people have told me, it is hard/impossible not to gain a lot of weight in the 3rd trimester. :) 
Maternity clothes:  wearing the belly band!
Sleep: It has been fine, still waking up once a night to go to the bathroom. Starting to get uncomfortable to sleep on my stomach, but still sleeping on it! 
Best moment of the week: hearing the heartbeat for the first time! 160 bpm!! Actually having energy to do things! :) Scheduling the 20 week ultrasound!! Knowing I am in the safer zone!! 
Food cravings: MILK!!!  I cannot get enough! Mainly chocolate milk!! 
Food aversions: Juicing, and strawberries now... :(
boobs sore- it is lessoning! 
cramps- have started to pick back up the last couple days
tiredness- lessoning!
irritability- lessoning!! 
acne- still the same, lessoning but prevalent 
bloat- hard to say, belly? baby? bloat? all? :) I definitely bloat after i eat! :) burning muscle pain in upper abdomen- lessoning, but still have spurts of a lot of pain. 
Movement: none yet! 
Gender: 8 weeks 1 day til we find out!
What I’m looking forward to: My growing belly, finding out gender, feeling movement! 
What I miss: nothing at the moment! LOVE LOVE LOVE knowing there is a little baby in my belly!! It is just the most amazing thing ever!!!!
Next appt: July 25th! :) With my new midwife! My first appointment I saw a midwife, she was ok, but I think her not being able to find the baby, left me not really wanting to see her again. I saw an MD on June 26th and I didn't like her at all. We just didn't mesh well. So I am now going to a hospital/clinic 2 mile from my house (or 2 miles) a midwife I met at the baby fair and I know we have a lot in common and she totally agrees with a lot of views! :) yay! Can't wait for that! 

Monday, June 25, 2012

taking action, being accountable and doing random acts of kindess

I feel Like I have totally been called out today! I was looking at pinterest when I ran across this blog post/pin.

it is all about RACKs (random acts of Christmas kindess). This mom and her kids set out to do one random act of kindness each day until Christmas. They taped candy canes to ATM's, quarters to meters, etc.

I have ALWAYS wanted to do stuff like this ever since I listened to Joyce Meyer's Love Revolution about a year ago. I have wanted to hand out grocery store gift cards, caribou, starbucks gift cards with like a business card type saying something like "Jesus loves you" or something cooler than that... but you get the drift. Hoping to touch someone somewhere and help them out.

But I have been full of excuses. I tend to tell my husband and pass it off onto his shoulders thinking "well if he wants to do it he will" not on purpose, but I realize that is what I do. He is so much more organized than me, and he is a "go getter". So I tell him something and unconsciously think "well if it touches him he will take action and we will do it." Well I don't think that is the case, I think he has a hard time of deciphering between my dreams and if I really want to do it. LOL. I tell him things all the time, and I never do them. I have the best of intentions to do them, but I never do. UGH, isn't that awful?! I need to start being accountable for myself. I can't rely on my husband to make sure that the things I want to do, and I am inspired by happen.

Reading that blog I was like what if people thought they were just fliers and totally threw them away, or didn't appreciate them or didn't park in the meter!! (they "plugged" parking meters! Or the list goes on and on in my head... and today I realized it doesn't matter! Its all a poor excuse. The people you are able to reach is what matters. The people who appreciate it. It doesn't have to have anything spriritual on it at all. Or when I hear about people paying for others at restaurants or drive thru's I am touched by that and think I need to do that, but I don't.. TODAY LEARNING I NEED TO TAKE ACTION! :)

I am going to do something. I am promising the blogosphere that. I get a biweekly allowance (budgeted out, by both my husband and I) that I often times just spend on random crap. Often times going out to eat with friends and co workers, or movies and junk food. I can actually use that money and help others!
Anyways, I am super excited about this, and that pin/blog post totally inspired me!!

You will be hearing from me soon about something I did, not to brag about it, or pat myself on the back, but I need to hold myself accountable. Hopefully my kids will read my blog someday and be inspired by things I did as well.

I will do this. I think I will set out to do one thing today. Stay tuned. :)

Sunday, June 24, 2012

11 weeks- June 19th

NO PICTURE THIS WEEK. sorry too lazy, and i am now only 2 days away from 12 weeks, so I will just wait until then. :)  

How far along: 11 weeks!
How big is baby: size of a fig, just over 1.5 inches! Almost fully formed! Bones are beginning to harden!
Total weight gain: 3.8 lbs
Maternity clothes:  wearing the belly band
Sleep: It has been fine, still waking up once a night to go to the bathroom. Starting to get uncomfortable to sleep on my stomach, but still sleeping on it!
Best moment of the week: calling and getting the information about our insurance, I am really happy with it! Also, switching midwives and switching to a hospital that is about 1 mile away! :)
Food cravings: MILK!!!  I cannot get enough! Mainly chocolate milk
Food aversions: Juicing, and strawberries now... :(
Symptoms: still the same, boobs sore, the cramps have really subsided I only feel them VERY rarely. I am not feeling as tired lately, this week no sickness. I am getting more of my spunk back. I have been irritable.
My acne has really started to clear up on my forhead, still there but not as bad. Not sure if I still have bloat, or if its actually the baby now! :) But probably both. :)

I was getting out of bed one morning and really hurt my muscle right by my ribs and under my breasts. It felt like burning pain. Now it often hurts. The pain lessoned for a couple days, and then I was taking my pants off and the burning pain came back and now its really been acting up again! I looked it up, and have found that it is fairly common in 29 weeks and up, but no one talked about this early. but I know my mom got a lot of muscle pain during her pregnancies. So I guess I shouldn't be surprised. :)

Movement: none yet!
Gender: 9 more weeks! (roughly)
What I’m looking forward to: getting further along and hitting the "safe-r zone"
What I miss: nothing at the moment! LOVE LOVE LOVE knowing there is a little baby in my belly!! It is just the most amazing thing ever!!!!
Next appt: June 26th! cant wait!

Friday, June 22, 2012

pregnancy and weight gain.. need advice!

I am super bummed! I was doing very well in the weight gaining department! Until the last 2 weeks!! Which considering I found out when I was 5 weeks really only means I did good for 4 weeks. but still I have gained a total of 5 lbs, since this morning!! Yesterday I had only gained 4 lbs and today I woke up and gained .8 lbs! I walked 3 miles yesterday, drank water and ate pretty dang healthy! I am scared! I also found STRETCHMARKS!! like 3 on each of my hips, one on my boob and one on my leg! I am freaking out a little bit. I have been lotioning almost daily. I was already overweight when I got pregnant and I was really hoping to not gain very much weight during this pregnancy.

Now don't get me wrong, I will take whatever abuse my body needs to take to have a healthy baby!! I am enjoying every second, but let me have this little freakout moment with no judging. please.

stretchmarks, I dont know if there is anything i can do besides drink water and lotion, which I am doing, and I will have to let that one go...


question 2: how much did you gain in the first trimester? Am I doomed? Is there anything that helped you in any stage during your pregnancy to keep your weight under control?

any advice will be greatly appreciated.

Saturday, June 16, 2012

10 weeks - June 12th!

How far along: 10 weeks.
How big is baby: size of a prune
Total weight gain: 2.5 lbs.. eeks
Maternity clothes:  I had to buy a belly band! :)  
Sleep: It has been fine, still waking up once a night to go to the bathroom. Starting to get uncomfortable to sleep on my stomach
Best moment of the week: buying the belly band!
Food cravings: Mexican always sounds good!
Food aversions: Juice.. still. :)
Symptoms: still the same, boobs sore, the cramps have really subsided,  just twice now I have felt cramps. I am tired a lot, sickness only comes when I am really tired now. I am getting more of my spunk back. Oh and I have been very irritable!
My acne has really started to clear up on my forhead. I still have quite a few but its getting smaller and more smooth skin is coming its way! :) oh and I have had this symptom since like week 5- BLOAT!!
Movement: none yet!
Gender: 10 more weeks! (roughly)
What I’m looking forward to: getting further along and hitting the "safe-r zone"
What I miss: diet mountain dew
Next appt: June 26th!

Friday, June 15, 2012

9 weeks- June 5th

How far along: 9 weeks.
How big is baby: size of a grape!
Total weight gain: 1 lbs
Maternity clothes: nope
Sleep: It has been fine, still waking up once a night to go to the bathroom.
Best moment of the week: just getting closer and closer to that 12 week mark!
Food cravings: Mexican always sounds good!
Food aversions: Juice.. still. :)
Symptoms: The cramps have subsided quite a bit, and so has my all day sickness, it is only for an hour or two after I get off work. Oh I forgot to mention at week 8 too, sore boobs!! My boobs have grown as well. My bra that used to fit nice and a little big on me, my boobs are popping out of them now. yikes!
pimples- till have acne on the forhead pretty badly! My face was always smooth, except for the chin zits I would get, but those were one-sy two-sy's and they would go away, these are acne pimples that are constantly there!
Movement: none yet!
Gender: 11 more weeks!
What I’m looking forward to: getting further along and hitting the "safe-r zone"
What I miss: diet mountain dew
Next appt: June 26th!

Thursday, June 14, 2012

8 weeks bumpdate may 29th

How far along: 8 weeks.
How big is baby: It’s a raspberry.
Total weight gain: 1 lbs
Maternity clothes: nope
Sleep: It has been pretty good. I wake up once in the night to go to the bathroom, but it doesn't bother me.
Best moment of the week: seeing the baby on the ultrasound and seeing the heartbeat!!!
Food Aversions: juicing, the thing (obviously besides God) that I believe got me pregnant!
Food cravings: strawberries
Symptoms: from 5 weeks 5 days until 7 weeks 5 days I was sicker than crap! I was miserable. I had no energy what so ever. You want me to move?? ugh. LOL. I was "icky" feeling non stop, and wasn't sure how I would make it!! But thankfully after 7w5d mark it has gotten so much better, it isn't all day every day, it is a couple hours a day now.
Movement: just some cramping and stretching, making room for baby.
Gender: who knows! But I think its a boy!
What I’m looking forward to: feeling the baby kick! getting into the 2nd trimester "safer zone"
What I miss: not really much of anything, but maybe my diet mountain dew!
Doctor's appointment: May 29th was my first doctors appointment!! I was so excited! I had a little bit high blood pressure, which they said they equate with nerves of your first doctor appointment. Which I was beyond excited, so I know that is what it was! I had a pap, ugh. and talked about the history of my family. And then she brought in the ultrasound machine! I was so excited! (I knew I would have one because my cycles are CRAZY! and they need a due date) so they did the transvaginal ultrasound and my midwife couldn't find the baby. She told me she thought she saw a "flicker" but wouldn't "bet her life on it" and so she told us we would need to schedule another ultrasound in radiology department. She then talked about how I could just not be as far along as I thought and she also talked miscarriages, and asked us if we had any questions. I was so disappointed, sad, upset and trying to hold it together, I said nope. We had to go schedule the ultrasound, I was trying to keep it together, and while scheduling the ultrasound I stopped myself from crying by reading the calendar. (LOL) After that is all set my husband says "well lets go get your labs done" and I must have said something ( I don't remember) and he said "you dont have to sound so snotty" and that is where I lost it I said "I am trying not to cry" and then I started sobbing in the hallway of a big clinic. I tried to hide my face with the folder they gave me, because it was the ugly cry that I had going on. My husband comforted me and decided we probably shouldn't do my labs today, so we walked to his car, hugged and I went back to work (I work across the parking lot from the clinic) A co worker asked how my appointment went, and then I lost it again. I silently... well ok not so silenty ( you know the snotty sobs and heavy breathing that happens when you cry) cried for um... lets just say a long time at work. I got it together called and told my parents that they couldn't find the baby and we have an appointment in 24 hours. Also had to text a couple friends that were asking about the appointment. I made it home, and my amazing husband took me out to eat, and a shopping trip to target to look at baby stuff, to make me feel better. (he melts my heart with how sweet and thoughtful he is) towards the end of the night I feel that God really laid peace on my heart. I was feeling more and more confident that I was just less far along than I thought (under 6 weeks is undectable in an ultrasound per my midwife) although it didn't make sense time wise that I would only be 6 weeks, I had determined that was what was going on. The next morning I went to work, and anxiously waited for the appointment to be here. I met my husband in the parking lot and he gave me a support card, that just made my heart melt. We walked into the ultrasound hand in hand. I laid on the bed and he put the ultrasound on my belly and there was our beautiful baby!!! It looked like a little gummy bear!! I was in love, I felt Jordan's hand give my arm a squeeze and all my worries went away. I got up went to the bathroom and back for the transvaginal ultrasound. I got a closer view of my baby and got to see the beautiful heart beat!! It was just amazing. I was on cloud nine. I have waited so long  to see that ultrasound and see a growing baby in my belly! I got the picture and I was a beaming annoying first time mom and I am more than ok with that! I love my baby. :)

Tuesday, June 5, 2012


So today I am 9 weeks pregnant!!! I feel like I am getting far in this pregnancy!! :) hehe. I know I still have 31 weeks to go! but I wasn't even sure I would make it to 9 weeks! I only have like 3 weeks left and I am out of my 1st trimester!! So crazy!!! I am hoping I get some energy back soon, but I am fine if I don't, I am loving knowing I am growing a little baby inside of me, composed of me and my husband. Truly amazing. Worth a million times any discomfort and annoyances I have to go through.

so back to the post title... yes.. I am an irritable bear lately! What is with that?! Things annoy me ALL THE TIME! The way my pants look when I walk, the way they are fitting me, what people say, how people say it. etc. I can't decide if its because I am tired all the time (I have been known to get cranky when I am tired and hungry) or if its the case of irritability that can come with pregnancy? I hope it passes soon, or I probably won't have any friends left! haha!

Saturday, June 2, 2012

family photo session

I have been a little scarce lately, and honestly its because I have been having all day sickness and I also have been extremely tired!! I am fully enjoying growing this baby though!! :) We got to hear the heartbeat and see our little gummy bear! It was such a surreal and amazing moment!!

I just have to share some photos from this session! I had such a great time with them! They are such a wonderful family! I often found myself thinking during this photoshoot "it would be so fun to be apart of this family!"

I had a hard time narrowing the selection down.. so many favorites!!

Mom, sister/aunt, brother/dad, son/nephew and of course the family dog that was such a good boy!! :)

I just LOVE this one! 

I love this too!!

ok i love them all. :) 

he was such a character! So fun! 

she is so beautiful!