It is time to get my butt in gear!
I realize now that it isn't as easy as I thought it would be. Sure if I didn't have a little one, I bet you I would totally rock everything!! But babies take more time than I imagined. My goal as a stay at home mom has always been to "live purposefully" with that I mean I don't want my days to wash away and not be productive, I want to make sure each day my family feels loved, I want to spend time with God each day, I want to accomplish something every day. I feel now that she is almost 15 weeks, she is gaining some independence and gives me about 10 minutes of "quick get things done" a few times a day. And I am learning how to get things done in those little moments she lets me. Where before I would walk around aimlessly thinking of everything I need to get done, and how she will wake before I can get it done, or run from room to room not really doing anything. I am finally figuring things out! :) And I know I am totally gonna rock at staying at home! Eventually. I can't say I am great at it yet, my house is rarely clean, something is always on our floors, my hair is always a mess, and I only have one baby!
I am learning to rock at it all though!! I have learned that my husband doesn't care that our house isn't 100% clean all the time (which I thought he cared most about, and was a huge insecurity of mine that he didn't think I was doing a good job) my husband cares about me taking care of our daughter and bulldog and having food for us. Having that revelation has really helped me prioritize every day. I am not perfect yet... today he left with no breakfast, and making his own lunch. But I am becoming more consistent. I promise.
DISCLAIMER: This is just how I want to run things, I want to have lunch prepared for my husband, I want to have breakfast for him, I want him to come home to a warm dinner. I am not not saying every stay at home mom should run this way, it is just how I want to run things.