Thursday, November 17, 2011


Why do I struggle with my weight?  Why do I struggle with consistency? I have the best of intentions. I really do.

My husband is one of those guys that if he says he isn't going to eat any more sugar. he actually does NOT eat any more sugar. Then there is his wife, when I say I am never going to eat any more sugar, I go and buy a box of oreos 10 minutes later. I say I am going to read the bible in 90 days, 9 months later, I am still reading the bible. My husband read the bible in 93 days. I have the best of intentions, but man do I struggle. Husband? Not so much. He seems to keep schedules, and do things with no struggle. So why do I struggle with my weight ?Why do I have such a hard time being patient? Why do I struggle with staying consistant? I don't understand. Is it because I am lazy? I don't feel lazy at all. I am actually a very busy person. Is that why, am I too busy? (don't ask my husband this, hehe)

Sometimes I think maybe I rely too much on how I am feeling. It is hard to make myself do something when I am tired or just dont want to do it. Or I feel like sitting and watching TV all night. Then of course I wake up and regret the decisions I made the day before. Why didn't I make myself drink 64 ounces of water? Why did I eat 6 oreos Why didn't I go on a walk for 30 minutes? Why didn't I do some sit ups while sitting there on my couch eating bon bons? Why didn't I wake up 30 minutes earlier to do morning yoga?

I think making a list of ONLY one or two things ( I usually make a daily list of 15-20 things) and force myself to do them before I go to bed at night. The other night I was ready to go to bed, and I said to myself "you have wanted to sweep and mop those floors for far too long, just do it, at least sweep and mop tomorrow" and you know what I did? I SWEPT AND MOPPED! and I felt really good, that even though I didn't go on an 8 hour cleaning frenzy, I cleaned, made my house look nice, and got some things accomplished that have been on my list for a while.

MY GOAL: make a list of only one or two things, check them off as done before 10pm.


  1. I saw 'me' in your post but at a younger age.
    Sit down...'BE STILL'. Make yourself look at those small blessings that will make you realize that the rest of it really isn't that important, and set smaller goals, like one book of the Bible in a month-so you can really grasp it (something I need to do)!
    God bless! You are a beautiful young lady~

  2. Awww this post made me smile because it's a man/woman thing defo.
    Don't beat yourself up too much, and I say this because it sounds like you are very busy, but also women were made for chocolate, simple! Let's not fight it. hahahaaa... But seriously it sounds just like a little willpower will go far and some realistic goals. Reading the Bible in 90 days is a pretty massive goal!! Why not just say "I'm going to read the Bible this year" try not to set yourself up for a fall and keeps those goals within reach. ;-)
    Just blog hopping, thought I'd say hi.
    Jennie. x