Do you remember this goal of mine? well it was a big big fail! I am embarrassed to say that I am almost finished with DEUTERONOMY!! Ugh, so embarrassed, especially because I inspired people to read the bible in 90 days AND THEY FINISHED! ugh, even more humiliation.
I have great intentions. "I am going to do this. I am going to finish. I am going to conquer." But I don't. WOW typing that last sentence hurt.
PS- I start work at 6:30.
If I could plan my day perfectly here is how it would go
spend time with God (scripture/prayer/listening)
get ready (actually do my hair and makeup)
go to work (well ok in a REAL PERFECT WORLD I WOULD BE A STAY AT HOME MOM/WIFE) make dinner (after work obviously)
do daily/weekly chores
take Porkchop on a walk
cuddle time with husband
but can I stick to this? NOPE. Not even close! I can hardly even wake up some days! And honestly I think that is too much in one day. I would need a rotating schedule. Or cut work out all together! :)
I don't even wake up with enough time to shower in the morning. I am just so inconsistant it is frustrating to me. I really want to make some HUGE changes in my life. God needs to be first in my life, and right now, he isn't. I am upset with myself that I didn't read the bible in 90 days, and that I haven't made a huge dent in it even, and it has been almost a year. I am sad that I haven't lost weight and I have been wanting to for 9 months (is when i said i was gonna get serious about it). I am just really realizing all my let downs lately. I have been busy with photography and I do love(love love love love) that, and find that I don't have enough time to do all I want to with that even! I want to do crafts too! I want to cook random things! I want to clean more often, I want to visit with friends and family I want to watch tv!
So what do I do? How can I make this happen? How can I make myself live a life that I want to live? You know.. .besides cutting working out of my schedule. :) That is another thing, I would love to work and make money so we could travel! So we could go on little excursions and big excursions!
I tend to lean on the whole all or nothing thing. I am not sure, does that work for people ever? I like it that way, but will that work for me? How do I find something that will work for me? where do i give? what do I take? How can I make it all happen? I need to make lots of changes and big changes, but I just am not sure how yet...