Thursday, March 22, 2012

I will not fear

Isaiah 41:10
       So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.

On Sunday night I went to chic night with a very good friend at her church. I had such a great experience! God really spoke to me during that message. So much so that I had tears that wouldn't stop coming while I was praying after the service (which is totally not me! I do NOT like to cry, I do everything I can to stop it).  God answered my prayer that night!

  I can't tell you the mornings and nights I would pray for God to help me lose weight, figure out what I need to do, and to give me the strength to follow through. I was getting so frustrated! I couldn't get myself to watch my calories, I couldn't get myself to get on that treadmill or do any sort of exercise!
       Sunday night it just "clicked". Even though I knew the answer all along,  I couldn't figure it out.  I still don't know why it took this message for me to get it through my thick head. But I got it. So clear.

The Holy Spirit is in me. He wants me to do everything, and perfectly. I have the power within me, always to do exactly what I want and need to do. I just have to dig deep and find His strength inside of me!! ::ANGELS SINGING:: That is the point where I wanted to just jump up and scream YES! YES! AMEN! 
  Hello Tara! I have had God's strength with me all along, I just need some discipline! Of course my fleshly self isn't going to want to wake up an hour and 15 minutes before I have to! Of course my fleshly self isn't going to want to walk or run after a long day at work! Of course my fleshly self is going to want to eat 3,000 calories a day of pure sugar! But I know that isn't what I should be doing. I need to take care of this vehicle (my body) God has given me. God wants me to take care of my body. He wants me to be the healthiest person I can be! He wants me to have babies, probably more than I want to have babies! He wants to see my husband and I live a long happy healthy life together! To get those things I need to choose healthy choices! God has given me the strength of Him inside me ALL ALONG! The Holy Spirit. I have the strength to do this!

So what do I need to do? Dig deep inside me and find God and know he gave me the strength to do this.

I can't base my choices of what I "feel" like doing! I have my "perfect" schedule mapped out, and I need to do it, and not ask myself what I think about it! because of course at first I will want to be lazy instead of this nice healthy stuff! But eventually it will be second nature! And even on the days i don't feel like it, I will know I can just get through it!



  1. You have been so blessed. I hope that one of my favorite verses will also give you comfort as it seems to fit your current place:

    "Daughter, your faith has healed you. Go in peace and be freed from your suffering." Mark 5:34

    You have inspired me too. God Bless, Jana

    1. Thank you Jana! That is a great verse! Thank you for sharing!


  2. What a beautifully honest post. God gives us the strength to do anything - we just have to get out of the way and let him sometimes.

    Before we had our daughter - we were having trouble. I was about 30 pounds over weight. One day, I just took it one prayer at a time... Dear God please help me get out of bed. Dear God please help me get dressed to work out. And my favorite - Dear God please let me make choices today that you would want for me - because you love me so much.

    1. Thanks Nessa! And you are so right! I need to pray one moment at a time! That is great advice!

  3. Great post, Tara! Best of luck to you on this journey. Blessings!

  4. God bless you Tara! I'll be praying for you as you walk through this journey. Just remember to listen to the Lord as He speaks to you. Have a great weekend!

  5. Great post! i found your blog through SITS and this post is very inspiring. God bless you.