I will not fear

Isaiah 41:10
       So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.


On Sunday night I went to chic night with a very good friend at her church. I had such a great experience! God really spoke to me during that message. So much so that I had tears that wouldn't stop coming while I was praying after the service (which is totally not me! I do NOT like to cry, I do everything I can to stop it).  God answered my prayer that night!

  I can't tell you the mornings and nights I would pray for God to help me lose weight, figure out what I need to do, and to give me the strength to follow through. I was getting so frustrated! I couldn't get myself to watch my calories, I couldn't get myself to get on that treadmill or do any sort of exercise!
       Sunday night it just "clicked". Even though I knew the answer all along,  I couldn't figure it out.  I still don't know why it took this message for me to get it through my thick head. But I got it. So clear.

The Holy Spirit is in me. He wants me to do everything, and perfectly. I have the power within me, always to do exactly what I want and need to do. I just have to dig deep and find His strength inside of me!! ::ANGELS SINGING:: That is the point where I wanted to just jump up and scream YES! YES! AMEN! 
  Hello Tara! I have had God's strength with me all along, I just need some discipline! Of course my fleshly self isn't going to want to wake up an hour and 15 minutes before I have to! Of course my fleshly self isn't going to want to walk or run after a long day at work! Of course my fleshly self is going to want to eat 3,000 calories a day of pure sugar! But I know that isn't what I should be doing. I need to take care of this vehicle (my body) God has given me. God wants me to take care of my body. He wants me to be the healthiest person I can be! He wants me to have babies, probably more than I want to have babies! He wants to see my husband and I live a long happy healthy life together! To get those things I need to choose healthy choices! God has given me the strength of Him inside me ALL ALONG! The Holy Spirit. I have the strength to do this!

So what do I need to do? Dig deep inside me and find God and know he gave me the strength to do this.

I can't base my choices of what I "feel" like doing! I have my "perfect" schedule mapped out, and I need to do it, and not ask myself what I think about it! because of course at first I will want to be lazy instead of this nice healthy stuff! But eventually it will be second nature! And even on the days i don't feel like it, I will know I can just get through it!