Monday, March 12, 2012

weekly weigh in

So last week I didn't weigh in. I totally forgot! I was feeling under the weather all week, and it only continued to get worse through the week. But I am finally on the mend!

weight loss this week(and last): 0

Total weight loss: 0

Average: (8 weeks in)  0.

Exercise-  I walked twice, but I think for a total of 20 minutes.

Juicing- I juiced twice in the past two weeks.

My pills- bad! I took them half the time, both weeks.
 
update on my cycle status-  My cycle went away after 3 days. I was disappointed but not surprised, this is the most i have been slacking since my periods have started. Why wouldn't this happen! ya know?
 
overall- Last weigh in I ranted about how I am not doing lots of things and how I am frustrated. But I have a new prospective on things.  I feel God has been working in me and really telling me that I need to work on my self confidence and really learn to love myself just the way I am, before  I can lose the weight. "I need to be happy and accept my body for what it is, and the weight will come off naturally"  that is what I feel God has been telling me. And honestly I don't know why, but my confidence has really been low for the last 2 years. No reason other than I am unhappy with my apperance. I am unhappy with how big I am and I feel I am not attractive anymore. I feel when people look at me (that have known me for a while) they think "wow she has gained weight" and then I get even more self concience. I know this is a terrible cycle and I need to stop it. I need to find the beautiful things about myself, and build my self esteem, bcause the better you feel about yourself the better you want to take care of yousrself. When  I am dressed cute, and feel confident, I want to eat healthy. But if I look like crap (which is usually because I feel like crap about myself) I eat like crap. So for me there is a definite correlation there. I know God will help me through this and I know I will succeed in my weight loss journey. I just need to listen to Him and accept and love myself (which does mean taking care of myself too)

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    1. Thanks! I just reread my post and found I wrote perspective as prospective... embarrassing! LOL

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  2. That sounds like you're realizing what is really important! :)

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    1. I really have, and all of a sudden I just feel like I am not winning this battle with weight loss because I don't love myself right now.

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  3. I love how strong you are! Even after you feel you've had a bad week you are able to look back and find growth!

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    1. Thanks! I am grateful for that too! :)

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  4. Thank you being so open and honest about everything. Your strength is inspiring to others around you! Listen to what God places on your heart and He will lead you in all the ways that you need. Great post!

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