weekly weigh in

So last week I didn't weigh in. I totally forgot! I was feeling under the weather all week, and it only continued to get worse through the week. But I am finally on the mend!

weight loss this week(and last): 0

Total weight loss: 0

Average: (8 weeks in)  0.

Exercise-  I walked twice, but I think for a total of 20 minutes.

Juicing- I juiced twice in the past two weeks.

My pills- bad! I took them half the time, both weeks.

 

update on my cycle status-  My cycle went away after 3 days. I was disappointed but not surprised, this is the most i have been slacking since my periods have started. Why wouldn't this happen! ya know?

 

overall- Last weigh in I ranted about how I am not doing lots of things and how I am frustrated. But I have a new prospective on things.  I feel God has been working in me and really telling me that I need to work on my self confidence and really learn to love myself just the way I am, before  I can lose the weight. "I need to be happy and accept my body for what it is, and the weight will come off naturally"  that is what I feel God has been telling me. And honestly I don't know why, but my confidence has really been low for the last 2 years. No reason other than I am unhappy with my apperance. I am unhappy with how big I am and I feel I am not attractive anymore. I feel when people look at me (that have known me for a while) they think "wow she has gained weight" and then I get even more self concience. I know this is a terrible cycle and I need to stop it. I need to find the beautiful things about myself, and build my self esteem, bcause the better you feel about yourself the better you want to take care of yousrself. When  I am dressed cute, and feel confident, I want to eat healthy. But if I look like crap (which is usually because I feel like crap about myself) I eat like crap. So for me there is a definite correlation there. I know God will help me through this and I know I will succeed in my weight loss journey. I just need to listen to Him and accept and love myself (which does mean taking care of myself too)