I'm a B.. I'm a B

I'm a busy bee that is! :) I am so excited and nervous for the next 9 plus days!
Tonight I have a family photoshoot
tomorrow- photographing a wedding
Sunday- church, church class, and family session
Monday- my day job, senior session
Tuesday- day job, family session
wednesday- meeting with potential client
Thursday- Newborn photo shoot
Friday- heading out to South Dakota
Saturday- photographing a wedding
Sunday- heading home and 1 year old session



I am super excited for them all!! Each one of these sessions and days is so full of potential! I am beaming with excitement! If I am playing it cool... it is totally a front. because I am beyond excited! I pray that this business continues because I love it! :)


I also have so much to share with you guys! Hopefully soon I can share the pictures from my recent sessions!

quotography time

I am queen of to do lists that mainly keep getting added to, not really crossed off. I really need to change that about myself. I constantly think "if I just had more time" but if I had more time, would I really use it wisely? I mean come on, look at these women who have multiple kids, they have dogs, they work, they take care of their houses and dinners and are apart of PTA etc. And then there is me... I work full time, no children, just a dog and my husband cooks. What do I do with my time? What makes me think I am so busy that I can't read the bible in 90 days when a mother of 3 who takes care of the house too was able to do it? So what do I need to do about it? Use my time more effectively, and not waste it. Love this quote. It is just so true.

linking up with my perspective. 

Friends

I am linking up with The paper mama's photo challenge "friends".  This picture makes me laugh. It looks like he is going to maybe choke him a little bit... maybe. :) 

 "friends" 

A-Z of me!

yep, I had to join the band wagon! Everyone is doing it! and its fun! 




A. Age: 26
B. Bed size: Queen

C. Chore that you hate: all of them? but I would say dishes the most, so thankful my wonderful husband does them (did I ever tell you guys, he is like THE BEST)  

D. Dogs: Porkchop, the english bulldog

E. Essential start to your day: immediately I pee. 

F. Favorite color: purple, deep purple

G. Gold or Silver: Silver

H. Height: I'm between 5'3".

I. Instruments you play: none. Boring. I know. 

J. Job title: Credit Analyst. Photographer(sort of :) ) 

K. Kids: I love kids, would love to have them but...

L. Live: In MN 

M. Mother’s name: Michaela (pronounced Michael with an a (ah) at the end) 

N. Nicknames: tarbear, tugboat, bean, mmm i think thats it. oh yea Tara #2 (my friend Tara's husband calls me that) 

O. Overnight hospital stays: none that I can think of. 

P. Pet peeves: lieing. 

speaking of pets... here are my sisters kitties... they are so cute! 

Q. Quote from a movie: it really depends on the moment, the last one that I quoted was "I totally paused" after not really stopping at a stop sign  (clueless)  
R. Right or left handed: Lefty
S. Siblings: My older sister Randi, my younger brother Joel, my younger brother Isaac and my younger sister Emily. I love them all. :)
T. Time you wake up: 5:30 am. Thank you work.
U. Underwear: yep, i love them. apparently so does my dog.. but he likes to eat them.. long story. 
V. Vegetable you hate: beets. 
W. What makes you run late: me being putsy.
X. X-Rays you’ve had: my ankle, i fell walking at work (yes just walking) was my most recent, I've had xrays of my teeth, xrays of my boobies (had a scare that was nothing), x ray of my leg

Y. Yummy food that you make:  hahahaha... i dont make yummy food, but my hubby does. :) 
Z. Zoo animal: I love all the animals! I think moose, giraffes, elephants, lions, lemurs, anything from africa. :)  

famiy session

here are some pictures of a family session I did about a week ago. It was so much fun! These 3 lovely ladies are so much fun! They had me laughing through the whole session. I am linking up with high heels 2 flip flops share your joy this week. (to see more click the button at the bottom)

I love photography. Photography is my joy. :)

me and my thoughts...

I have some really great pictures that I am going to share with you... tomorrow. ;) Can't wait to show you!

So who watches biggest loser? I do! I love that show. That show is so inspiring to me, I love watching their dedication and break down their mental barriers in working out.See I have a problem when I work out, and it is myself. It isn't my body that says I need to stop, it is me. I get sick of being out of breath, which from talking to several other people is from my exercise induced asthma, from talking to others that have that problem the common denominator is asthma and the people that didn't have asthma their legs got tired. But either way, it is a mental barrier I need to break. With my infertility issues I really want to exercise a lot, there are studies that show exercise releases hormones that could help me get a baby in my belly! and also I want to watch my carbs which also some studies show that can increase my chances of getting a baby in my belly. :) So you are probably asking yourself WHAT AM I WAITING FOR? That is a good question, I ask myself every day.. I want to lose weight, I want to have a baby, i want to be healthy, I want to feel good about myself. So why is this such a struggle?! I don't know. Every day I make "exceptions" on my sugar and carbs and not working out. UGH.

So now that biggest loser started I really want to start a diet and start working out. I have a great friend Tara that showed me some awesome links to make my perfect planner that i have been looking for and I think I need to sit down and make it! And make it happen. I have been saying that changes need to happen, and I need to buckle down and do it, and plan how to make it all balance. Winter is coming so I know my photo sessions will slow down quite a bit, which will give me more time to spend more time with God and focus on getting myself where I want to be.

So can I do it? I want to. I need to. I am in charge of my life. So I need to make it the way I want to. Sometimes I think that I want to do too much and don't allow enough time for it all.. which has always been me and my problem, but I always can fit it in, but then I crash eventually and don't continue with any of it.

well thanks for listening to me.

sorry for no new pictures... I will get better at that too... just add it to my list!  :)

here are some older ones that you might have forgotten about.

backlighting

Here is one of my favorite shots from my most recent maternity session. The lighting was just awesome during the pictures!  I am entering this one in the rock the shot backlighting challenge.

click here to check out more or enter your own!  

I am also entering this in LEM photo challenge for lighting!

Maternity session

 Here is a maternity session I did Labor day weekend. She is such a beautiful pregnant woman, and they are such an adorable couple! I can only hope that one day when I am pregnant I will look as beautiful as she did! 

CH CH CH CHANGES

Do you remember this goal of mine? well it was a big big fail! I am embarrassed to say that I am almost finished with DEUTERONOMY!! Ugh, so embarrassed, especially because I inspired people to read the bible in 90 days AND THEY FINISHED! ugh, even more humiliation.
 I have great intentions. "I am going to do this. I am going to finish. I am going to conquer." But I don't. WOW typing that last sentence hurt.

PS- I start work at 6:30.

If I could plan my day perfectly here is how it would go

wake up
spend time with God (scripture/prayer/listening)
workout
shower
get ready (actually do my hair and makeup)
go to work  (well ok in a REAL PERFECT WORLD I WOULD BE A STAY AT HOME MOM/WIFE) make dinner (after work obviously)
do daily/weekly chores
take Porkchop on a walk
photograph/edit daily
blog daily
read 
cuddle time with husband


but can I stick to this? NOPE. Not even close! I can hardly even wake up some days! And honestly I think that is too much in one day. I would need a rotating schedule. Or cut work out all together! :)

 I don't even wake up with enough time to shower in the morning.  I am just so inconsistant it is frustrating to me. I really want to make some HUGE changes in my life. God needs to be first in my life, and right now, he isn't. I am upset with myself that I didn't read the bible in 90 days, and that I haven't made a huge dent in it even, and it has been almost a year. I am sad that I haven't lost weight and I have been wanting to for 9 months (is when i said i was gonna get serious about it). I am just really realizing all my let downs lately. I have been busy with photography and I do love(love love love love) that, and find that I don't have enough time to do all I want to with that even! I want to do crafts too!  I want to cook random things! I want to clean more often, I want to visit with friends and family I want to watch tv!

So what do I do? How can I make this happen? How can I make myself live a life that I want to live? You know.. .besides cutting working out of my schedule. :)  That is another thing, I would love to work and make money so we could travel! So we could go on little excursions and big excursions!

I tend to lean on the whole all or nothing thing. I am not sure, does that work for people ever? I like it that way, but will that work for me? How do I find something that will work for me? where do i give? what do I take? How can I make it all happen? I need to make lots of changes and big changes, but I just am not sure how yet...

ANY ADVICE?!?!

10 REASONS

Why you will never see me on BRAVO's real housewifes of ANY COUNTY.

1. I am not rich
2. I don't have skeletons in my closet
3. I always try to keep peace, and discuss things, so there is no drama in my life.
4. I work for a living. Kind of a big one..
5. I don't really get into buying lots of clothes, but that is probably because of #1.
6. I would always be behind the scenes figuring out what they are doing and how.
7. I have no desire to be famous... well ok, i want to be a singer, but  the whole earth would blow up if I sang on TV.. no joke.
8. I don't have a beach body.
9. if i ever wore a swimsuit on camera, you would lose viewers
10. I live in MN.


BUT THEN AGAIN... MY FAMILY SURE IS CUTE...

I WOULDN'T BE SURPRISED IF THEY COME KNOCKING ON MY DOOR ASKING ME TO DO A SHOW AFTER SEEING THESE CUTE PICS OF MY FURBABY AND MY FAMILY.  ;)

Scavenger Hunt Sunday

Bokeh


This picture was so fun for me to make! I have never played with manual focus... I know. It is a shame. I really enjoyed doing something new, and playing with my manual focus! This is my tree in my backyard. 

Reflection

This is from a mini session I did with mainly a car. Silly them.. did they think I Wouldn't include them in the picture! :) 

Remember

A little over 2 years ago my wonderful husband and I got married. I fall more deeply and madly in love with him every day! And I am so thankful he is my husband.

Flying high

This is from a session I did a couple weeks ago, I have been really bad about posting my sessions on here! But we had so much fun! 

statues

ENGLISH BULLDOG statues!!! Did you think it would be anything else?! :) 

 Process of Elimination
I think my 2 fave pictures from a maternity session I did a week ago. :)