On Friday I weighed myself and lost 2 lbs! Since Tuesday! I was ecstatic! However, family came into town, and well I ate too much. I know I gained it all back, but I won't weigh myself until Tuesday to hopefully undo some damage...

I am still motivated, even after this bad weekend of over eating to lose weight. My goal is to lose 37 lbs for my 5th wedding anniversary! Wouldn't that be fun! :)

Tomorrow my plan is

Oatmeal & toast for breakfast

celery, carrot, potato soup for lunch

fish, rice and grean means for dinner

banana and strawberries and grapefruit for any snacks i need


Adeline just puked a few hours ago and then went to bed, but I am hoping she is feeling better tomorrow and we will have a fun day doing laundry, cleaning, eating healthy and doing photography and church work! :)

^ A girl can dream I will get all that done, right? :)

Gettin' my groove back

I drank 60 ounces of water today

I went over my calories by 450 calories! EEKS. It actually was my dinner. I had no idea tortillas were 210 calories a piece!! I thought maybe 110 a piece. DANG. NOT FAIR! So I really would have done SO MUCH BETTER IF IT WASN"T FOR THAT ACCIDENTAL 420 calorie overload. :)

my veggies at lunch

Honestly, even though I have gone over the past two days I feel great!  I totally want to eat more, and I am stopping myself. I am being aware of everything that is going in my mouth. I am making progress in becoming the woman, wife, mother I want to be!

Things are really coming together in my life. I have a babysitter for every Wednesday for a bible study, I am keeping up with laundry, my house is looking more and more put together and not a tornado zone. I am proud of myself! I am getting my groove back. INSERT HAPPY DANCE!

I will do this. I will be at least 57 lbs lighter. I am doing it. I am.

yay!

we were at sleep number picking up a memory foam topper, adeline loved the memory foam bed!

checking in...

Yesterday I wrote this post about living purposefully and getting back on track. Drinking water, and calorie counting.

I did really good all day. I measured everything out, I went out to eat, I got a salad and ordered banana and strawberries for desert. I got home and was dead tired at 7:30. I ended up falling asleep at 8 pm and at 9 Adeline woke me up because she lost her pacifier and I needed to go get it for her. I realize I am so tired because I am restricting my calories. I had eaten 1350 calories for the day. That was my goal. I was super happy with that.

However 9 pm, I was tired and bummed because I normally don't go to bed until 11:30. I ate a bowl of cereal, which turned into 2 bowls of cereal. HELLO 500 calories! Ugh. So now I have energy. At least I stayed up and did my bible study, but I ate 500 extra calories. I would have much preferred to just go to bed and lose weight! Darn weaknesses! Willpower where did you go!?

I drank 60 ounces of water today. I am happy with that.


Tomorrow is a new day and I am hoping I can keep my mouth closed and only consume the 1350 calories.

 I know my body will adjust to eating that amount soon and I won't be so sleepy once it adjusts so I just need to get over the initial hurdle.

Side note: it is snowing here in Minnesnowta... I hope the roads are good tomorrow.

Living purposefully... weightloss edition.

This is when my daughter was a few weeks old, but I assure I weigh exactly the same. 

 I just calculated how much weight I want to lose... Ideally I want to lose 77 lbs. AHHH WHAT?! REALLY?!  I can't believe I am that far away from being away from my ideal weight! That is like... a lot.

So pretty much I would like to lose 57-77 lbs. Have i mentioned I cannot believe I let myself get so far away from my goal. I honestly don't know what happened.

I was happy with my weight mostly, I met my now husband and in that year I put on 25 lbs. I lost the 25 lbs for the wedding, then gained 40 lbs (while trying to conceive) and then gained 50 lbs while pregnant (yep on top of the 40) Then lost 30 lbs after having Adeline. So I still have 60 lbs to get me to my wedding weight. Which I think I looked great! ( I still would have liked to been less... but I still looked great!)

For 2014 I have a lot of ideas I want this year to be, but I am really wanting to live every day purposefully, and focus on order, getting my life in order, simplifying, etc. One of those things is my body, eating, schedule in order.

How am I going to accomplish my goal in 2014?

1. Drink 80-100 ounces of water a day.

2. Eat 1300-1500 calories a day.



I am trying to keep it simple.

I already feel overwhelmed just thinking about counting the calories. But purposeful living, purposeful eating...

I can do this! I will do this.


This time next year I will be

60 lbs lighter.


I can do it.

Do what I can, When I can. (thanks Roni for the saying!)

By the end of this year, I will weigh a few pounds less than what I did in the photo!

What's on my mind...

I just took this photo of Jordan and Adeline cuddling. Melt my heart. It was the sweetest thing ever. Now I am obsessed with this photo. 

I really want to lose weight... and need to make a meal plan and count my calories daily. It would help if I enjoyed cooking more... but it isn't my favorite activity. I much prefer organizing and making things look pretty. Hehe.


Yoga... it is something I want to do every day. I really enjoy it. And am so happy when I do it. While learning how to do yoga correctly, I have discovered it is so much more than just doing a pose. It is about engaging muscles, proper stances, and using muscles not your bones for support. And I also learned when doing it properly I am very beginner!


Planking is on my mind.. I have to do it tonight... I should get on that. I am making huge progress. When Adeline was first born I could only do 11 seconds! Now I am up to 1 minute and tonight I will b trying for 1 minute 30 seconds! I am really proud of how I am improving!


Photography is on my mind a lot right now! I am so excited for 2014 and to see what it has in store for my photography business!


Now I need to plank and go to bed!

Dear Adeline

Dear Adeline, 

You are one years old now! And so much fun! You love to laugh and to make people laugh. The sparkle in your eye warms my heart.

 You started walking 2 days after your first birthday! you giggle the whole time you are walking. You are so proud of yourself.

You have refused to nurse now for a few days... I am both happy and sad! I will miss nursing you, but the freedom is kind of nice. :)

You eat everything! Even steak! :)

You don't want me to ever leave your sight! Even when you are playing you will make sure I am watching you. 

If I say "no" you smile and do it again. I repeat "no" and you a little more unsurely do it again and smirk. :) 

You have really started getting vocal about what you do and don't want to do. 

You hate diaper changes! It is quite the challenge to get you to lay down and let me change your diaper. 

You still really like your pacifier and bottles. I am not quite sure how I am going to get you away from pacifiers and bottles yet..  I am thinking... slowly.

You weigh 19 lbs 13 ounces you are 28.5 inches. 

Your doctor says you are doing great and look very healthy! I agree! 

I choose...

I am not sold on the idea that picking up your house is worth it.. when you have children too young to assist. I work frantically to clean the kitchen, only to walk into our bedroom to find our end table drawers strewn about... I quick clean that up, while giggling at what a cute little booger behind all the rubble, only to walk in the bathroom and stub my toe on her toy she pushed in there when I wasn't looking. I put the toy back in her room to find that she has ripped the toilet paper into 14,756 pieces and as she crawls away she leaves a little shredded trail down the hallway giggling. I pick up all those pieces to return to the kitchen to finish cleaning it up, only to realize it is time to prepare for dinner... It leaves me wondering... is it really necessary to have a nice picked up home? :) 

Ok the answer is NO and YES!  For me anyway. Majority of the day I do let the mess sit and wait. I make sure to enjoy playing with my little ONE YEAR OLD (GASP:: is she really one already?!) However once that little rascal is in bed, I try to muster up the energy to pick up the mess that was made, and then relax for a little while before bed. 

I have learned very quickly that being supermom is not actually something that I can accomplish. I cannot always have a picture perfect house, and enjoy this little peanut. It took me a year, but I have embraced it! I love playing with my little girl, and watching her laugh and making her squeal in pure delight! I choose to make sure I give my child memories over having a spotless house. Because I cannot do both. ( I applaud those that are able to!) 

Earlier this year I would have just played/taken care of Adeline all day and then go to bed which created a very messy home and a stressed out mama. It feels silly to admit that, but I just really struggled in keeping up with my house and my child. I feel like I have a great balance right now! my house is no where near perfect, but things actually get done! 

And that makes me happy! :) 

Ok I am off to bed, because it is far too late and this mama needs some sleep! :) 

2014 Goals!

I love making goals! I love fresh starts and a "blank pages" I have a feeling that 2014 is going to be an amazing year for our family. My husband recently graduated and got his second bachelors degree ( I am so proud of him!) He is going to be taking his CPA Exam in a few months (have I mentioned I am so proud of him!) Also Adeline is turning one in just two days!

 I can't wait to see what this year brings! I have a few goals that I would like to make for myself! And I actually have the confidence that I will achieve the goals I set out to do!

1.  Run three 5k's - I like this goal, I feel it is attainable, yet challenging! I ran before I got pregnant, and I am hoping to be able to pick it up again, and continue running through my next pregnancy (no I am not pregnant)
2. Read 10 books- I think I read one book in 2013, and I love to read! I have so many books I can't wait to read! I am really excited about this one! I am reading right now: Left to Tell by Immaculee Ilibagiz. on the cover it says "discovering God amidst the Rwandan Holocaust.
3. Finish reading the Bible- I have started and stopped the "Read the Bible in 90 days" plan about 10 times. I am reading Psalm right now.
4. Drink more water- I go on streaks of being an amazing water drinker, and a horrible one. Right now I am a horrible one.
5. Be more physically active- I have started planking daily and doing yoga daily! I have really been enjoying it!
6. Less Television- We are getting rid of cable, and we actually don't have any TV's in any areas of the house that we hang out in. It is really refreshing!
7. Go outside more- I always have so many plans for doing things outside, but I usually don't do them. This year, I don't care what I do outside, I just want to be outside more. :)
8. Show more gratitude - I feel like being more grateful and showing gratefulness- even when you don't feel like it is something I really aspire to do!
9. Complete my 365 project. I am over 60 days in, and I am loving it! You can see my 365 at this blog: www.tgbphotography.blogspot.com
10. De-clutter my house. I feel like having a baby really cluttered up my house! I don't know why I am so surprised at that, but I didn't realize how much room they take up! haha. I can't wait to go through each room and get rid of the things we don't need! :)


Happy New Year!