Thursday, February 17, 2011

Can I get a side of Skinny, please?

 Since I have never talked about my weight on this blog, how about I start when I got engaged? Yes, ok I will start there..

I got engaged on December 13th 2008 at 3:30 am, we had just gotten home from the airport, we had taken a trip to San Diego to see his wonderful cousin! We went to a concert and the San Diego zoo, my hubby and his poor cousin had to walk the zoo for 6 hours with me, because well I LOVE the zoo... Well I LOVE watching animals and seeing them ALL! So they suffered and I didn't notice a thing because I was in heaven! Anyways... I was at my heaviest weight at that time and I was so insecure, I felt uncomfortable, my clothes just weren't fitting right, I couldn't breathe (I was having major allergy issues that year too), and of course my hubby is thin, and really healthy and that wasn't helping my insecurities (Hopefully our future children will get that gene! :)  I just felt like a hippo around that time!
 So we got engaged and I started really focusing on losing weight! I lost 20 lbs for the wedding! And I looked good on my wedding, it wasn't where I wanted to be, but I felt a lot better about myself! Now fast forward 1.5 years.. back at my heaviest!!! I feel like I could cry!! I do not want to be this weight. I keep talking about it, and talking about it, and talking about it but I really am not doing anything about it! I get so frustrated with myself! I will do good and then its like I lose 2 lbs and that same day I see I lost 2 lbs  I will totally over eat and gain them RIGHT back! I just want to look good and feel good and be confident again!!

I know what I need to do, I need to stay in my calorie range, I need to drink lots of water, and be active on a consistent basis! But do I? NO.

What am I going to do about it? BLOG ABOUT IT OF COURSE! :) I figure you guys can help keep my accountable! :) and maybe this will help keep my accountable! I am hoping that blogging about weight loss and things will help keep my excited about it. :)  I IDEALLY want to lose 45 lbs,  but I will be happy with 30-35! Okay, I will even be happy with 20! :) But I know I can do this. I just have to be consistent!

Here is a picture of my handsome hubby and puppy on graduation day. And even though my puppy is the cutest thing alive (in my eyes) I don't want to be Porky(thats his name, pun totally intended) like him!

Here is what I am going to make for dinner tonight!

Nice and healthy fish! I will be making broccoli too, because I can't eat fish without broccoli! It just doesn't seem right!

9 comments:

  1. Well Miss Tara, I cant believe that you weigh any more then I do.. I too would LOVE to loose weight but have done nothing about it.. My biggest problem, I HATE healthy foods! I can handle salad if it is made just the right way and I can do corn and green beans and strawberries and oranges and bananas and apples, but everything else, well that's out the window! :(

    I also have ZERO motivation for working out! I need to get an hour or so a day scheduled into my day so I can workout.. Its just hard to find that hour a day being a busy mom to 4!

    I say you and I come up with a plan together to motivate eachother! Be it working out together, monitoring what eachother eat, etc! It might be easier to do for each of us if we have someone who we can do it with.. Just a thought

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  2. I think blogging is a great way to get you motivated and keep you motivated! I also think having a place to go to for inspiration or something that inspires you is great for when your in a rut! At least that's what I do with crafting. I have some great blogs that I go back and read whenever I'm feeling in a rut and it totally works!! You have so many people who are here to support you Tara and you can do it!!

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  3. Good for you!! Shortmama used to do a muffin top journey, but she is taking a blogging break. CA Girl has a weight loss blog, so yes lots of support out there.

    You can do it!

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  4. Hi
    I am a new follower from the blog hop
    I blog at www.tammileetips.com
    I hope you will stop by and visit
    Tammilee

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  5. Hi from the blog hop! I need a side of skinny too!! lol... I've been battling with it since my son was born 3 years ago. Here's to shedding those unwanted pounds :)
    www.TheMcMommyDiaries.blogspot.com

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  6. MB- I think that is a great idea!


    Emmy- thanks! I will check them out!

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  7. Thanks for the comments on my blog! I keep changing my mind on the wednesday names. I went from Wednesday Wisdoms to Wantful Wednesday's and then I was going to change it again to Wish-Full Wednesday's, lol. It was nice to hear your opinion on it. I have some more thinking to do now, lol.
    www.TheMcMommyDiaries.blogspot.com

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  8. Perfect Tara! We can talk about details on the 20th?! :o) The only scheduled evenings I have plans for every week are Wednesday and Thrusday but other days/night I am available! :o)

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  9. Loosing weight and weight issues are a constant battle for me - my partner is also super skinny and can eat what we wants whereas me, well, not so much. I'm struggling with it even more now that I'm pregnancy. I put on a lot of weight during my first trimester and now weighting for the baby to be born so that I can start loosing it all again. It's going to be a tough and long road I think. But... the good thing is that small things really help. Replacing your fruit juice/coke with water, not eating "seconds", taking the stairs instead of the elevator. Think small initially because you want long-term change (ie behaviour change) and not drastic weight loss.

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