Since I have never talked about my weight on this blog, how about I start when I got engaged? Yes, ok I will start there..
I got engaged on December 13th 2008 at 3:30 am, we had just gotten home from the airport, we had taken a trip to San Diego to see his wonderful cousin! We went to a concert and the San Diego zoo, my hubby and his poor cousin had to walk the zoo for 6 hours with me, because well I LOVE the zoo... Well I LOVE watching animals and seeing them ALL! So they suffered and I didn't notice a thing because I was in heaven! Anyways... I was at my heaviest weight at that time and I was so insecure, I felt uncomfortable, my clothes just weren't fitting right, I couldn't breathe (I was having major allergy issues that year too), and of course my hubby is thin, and really healthy and that wasn't helping my insecurities (Hopefully our future children will get that gene! :) I just felt like a hippo around that time!
So we got engaged and I started really focusing on losing weight! I lost 20 lbs for the wedding! And I looked good on my wedding, it wasn't where I wanted to be, but I felt a lot better about myself! Now fast forward 1.5 years.. back at my heaviest!!! I feel like I could cry!! I do not want to be this weight. I keep talking about it, and talking about it, and talking about it but I really am not doing anything about it! I get so frustrated with myself! I will do good and then its like I lose 2 lbs and that same day I see I lost 2 lbs I will totally over eat and gain them RIGHT back! I just want to look good and feel good and be confident again!!
I know what I need to do, I need to stay in my calorie range, I need to drink lots of water, and be active on a consistent basis! But do I? NO.
What am I going to do about it? BLOG ABOUT IT OF COURSE! :) I figure you guys can help keep my accountable! :) and maybe this will help keep my accountable! I am hoping that blogging about weight loss and things will help keep my excited about it. :) I IDEALLY want to lose 45 lbs, but I will be happy with 30-35! Okay, I will even be happy with 20! :) But I know I can do this. I just have to be consistent!
Here is what I am going to make for dinner tonight!
Nice and healthy fish! I will be making broccoli too, because I can't eat fish without broccoli! It just doesn't seem right!