Newborn session

Here are some images I took this past weekend at a newborn photo shoot!

Enjoy!

I am entering this one in the click it up a notch photography contest :)

beginnings

we all have beginnings of our careers, of starting on our path of our dreams, starting a family, or even starting a blog! It is kind of fun and or embarrassing to go back to the beginning..

My sister posted a picture from her wedding day that I took back in the dizzle when I was just learning photography, before editing and all! It is really fun to see how much I have grown!

On top of seeing my beginnings work you should really check out my sisters blog, she is naturally an excellent writer, I think it is because she writes with her emotions or something! I just love her blog!  She started blogging a little while ago and would love your support! I always enjoy reading her blog, and not only because she is my sister, but because well it rocks. :)

http://randiocoy-letterstomybaby.blogspot.com/


(my computer is being dumb, and I can't put a picture up of my beautiful sister. Another reason you should check out her blog!) Too much? ;)

Monday weigh in

weight loss this week: +2   (are you seeing a trend? Because I am! -2, + 2! The same stinkin 2 lbs!)

Total weight loss: 0

Average: (6 weeks in)  0!!! ugh

Exercise-   I walked twice this week. A small improvement, but an improvement non the less.

Juicing- twice this week. Definitely need to get better, but my life has been feeling hectic lately. And I was really focusing on my photography this week (which I TOTALLY LOVED EVERY MINUTE OF IT!)

My pills- bad! I think I am starting to see a trend with this as well... I Need to take my pills.

update on my cycle status-  Last week I told you I ovulated, and Sunday I got my period! I am still ecstatic that I am ovulating, but this month was the first time where I was was like "MAN, I was hoping I was pregnant" Of course I always do, but the last 3 times it has happened I was so excited just knowing that my body  has started working properly!

 Now I think that is starting to wear off, and I have started hoping for pregnancy. Which we still have no idea, how that scenario will go. But I pray that it goes well and smooth and no losses, and THAT IT HAPPENS!! 

Babies and pregnancy  has really shifted to the back of my mind latley. I have really been working on my photography, organization, getting healthier(well THINKING about getting healthier), volunteering, and spending time with my husband. I am happy that the " I need a baby" feeling isn't so apparent, I am and have realized I can be happy without children if that is God's plan for Jordan and I. ( I however strongly believe that God will bless us with a child in due time)

overall-  I am really frustrated with myself. I know Mondays are a hard weigh in, coming off from the weekend, where I don't drink as much water and eat worse. But I want to have that looming in my head over the weekend too, so I can be aware. I am frustrated with myself because I know I can lose weight. And I am not doing it. I know I have time to get my butt on the treadmill, and I am not doing it. I often ask myself why can others do this so easily and for me I can't seem to get the hang of it, no matter how bad  I want it. I WANT IT BADLY, but at the same time... if I want it that badly then why am I not doing it?  I think I am stuck in a rutt. I am frustrated that I am 6 weeks in and at 0 lbs, even if you count the 2 lbs I am flucuating. THAT JUST PLAIN OLD SUCKS. I can do better than this. I am better than this.  I honestly haven't been happy with my weight in 3 years. SO WHY AM I NOT DOING IT?  I can't figure it out! I thought for sure getting diagnosed with PCOS would kick my into gear with working out like CRAZY. Eating CRAZY HEALTHY things! Watching what I ate, how much I ate, I thought it would turn me into ONE HEALTHY MACHINE. But it didn't. I can't figure out why that is. Laziness is the only thing I can come up with?? But I am not that lazy, I promise, I stay very busy. Am I weak? Is food my weakness? It is hard for me to say no? I love the taste? But I know what I should and shouldn't have. I just don't take enough time to think if I should or not? So is impulse my problem?

          Actually thinking about it, I think it is impulse. Someone wants mcdonalds, I think that sounds YUMMY, and then we head out the door. NOW what I should do, is take the time to calculate my calories, what I will have for dinner and what I already had, and what I can eat for lunch, and then adjust my meal ordering to allow for that.... BUT I DON'T!  See I told you I know how!! I just don't.

           I am really hoping I can get this together soon!! I want 2012 to be a kick ass year!  And I was going to take charge of my health and lose weight and do TONS of 5k's! And so far I am STRUGGLING, and SINKING!

          I also feel like I am failing by documenting this failure! But at the same time, I LOVE doing this for myself because it forces me to reflect! Which is really good for me! because otherwise I might tuck the scale away and eat a package of oreos. :)

The emotion escaping them is just magical.

Here it is!! My favorite picture from an engagement session I did the other day! It is February and they were willing to brave the cold with me to do an engagement session! HUGE BONUS POINTS.

They were so awesome! For seriel (my term for serious, I believe taken from south park :) )  They were so natural with the posing! They rocked! I think they were made to take pictures! :) I am just completing this session, and havent shared this one with them yet because well.. its my fave! And I can't wait to show it to them!! The emotion escaping them is just magical. for realsies. :) I can't wait for their wedding this summer!

be still my heart

On Saturday I had the honors of going to the hospital and photographing this baby! It was so fun to be there for that! And watching her big sister see her for the first time. It was so darling! I may have teared up a couple times capturing such a happy moment in this families life!

check out more hugs & kisses entries at I heart faces

Monday weigh in

Feb 13th- Feb 19th weightloss

weight loss this week: -2  WOOOHOOO!!

Total weight loss: -2! ::doing my happy dance!

Average: (5 weeks in)  less than half a pound a week.. too little for my calculator to compute! But at least its going down and not 0!

Exercise-   Exercise was non existent again. I am going to try and fix that this week!!!

Juicing- 3 or 4 times. aiming for that again this week!

My pills- I was really good about taking my pills! There was 3 days that I didn't take any. But the rest I took them all! I count that as a success!

update on my cycle status-  So it takes me a little while to know if I ovulated or not. Usually like 3 or 4 days after ovulation I will know, and I ovulated sometime around Feb 10th or 11! woot woot!!  I am so excstatic that my body has started functioning correctly! It just seems so unreal my body is actually working! After  15 months, it is working! wow.

overall- I am actualyl shocked I lost weight this week! Let alone 2 lbs! It kind of shows me that last week really wasn't a gain! :) I ate bad foods but just not very often, my dinners have really been non existant lately, i think i had one dinner last week and that was it. Hopefully dinners will get back on schedule and so will my weight loss and I can kick butt in this weightloss! I am excited and seeing a -2 on the scale was just what I needed this morning.

ONE AWAY!!

I am at 99 followers for my blog you guys!! 

That makes me so excited!

Like a little school girl!

I got on blogger today and saw the number 99, I smiled and stared at the number for a couple minutes daydreaming of becoming just like the pioneer woman  little bit! I AM SO CLOSE TO 100 followers!!! wow!!

 I love writing blog posts and I LOVE reading blogs! I love the blogging community, and how so many different bloggers have really opened my eyes to so many different  thoughts, opinions, circumstances, and worlds. The blogging community has really opened my eyes to so many different atmospheres of photography, decorating my house, do it yourself projects, money, love, marriage, relationships and Christ  I otherwise would have missed out on! I get inspired from so many of you guys!

Thanks to Tara (not myself) for introducing this awesome community to me!

So as my 99 LOVELY readers, what are some of your favorite things about my blog?

what would like to see/read more of?


HERE are some of my favorite posts I have done:

-I really love this post when I wrote about my husband and marriage. Marriage post -

- I really enjoy doing my weekly weigh in on Mondays, even though I am not perfect at this weight loss thing
             weightloss
-  post with Porkchop our walk

-  I LOVE this post when I talk about 2011, the lessons learned and some things that happened. my recap of 2011-

my pants are too tight

Happy Valentines Day!

I don't know about you, but I always have big plans to do something amazing and awesome for Holidays, but time always seems to slip by me, and I have nothing cool for my husband or to show you guys today.  Next valentines I will! (or so I tell myself) Or how about next holiday. :) es... next holiday. I am committing to doing something fun and creative! Mark my words! :)

Even though I have nothing cool to show anybody,  I love my husband, so much! I am constantly amazed at our marriage and how we are developing into our own family! And I couldn't be more ecstatic about that! I love his love for me, I love how caring he is, I love how dedicated he is to making my dreams come true. He is my prince charming. ( for those of you who don't know, he really is, but also, I have a thing for Cinderella. I love her too)

On a side note my pants are too tight today. I didn't do laundry last night and wearing pants, that just don't fit right. They are cute, but too snug. It is really annoying! And I haven't even left for work yet! But I am not going to let it ruin my day!


This weekend I went to my moms house and took some pictures!

The black and white puppy- (well she is almost 10 years old) her name is Sweetie.

The brown and white puppy - (he is 4 months old) his name is Teddy.

happiness is my family (including doggie relatives) :)

Me & my mom

My beautiful mother

she she beautiful!

I love this of her laughing





Feb 6th- Feb 12th weightloss

weight loss this week: +1   but I know I didn't drink hardly any water this weekend, and I felt dehydrated, so I am hopingthat has something to do with it!! :(

Total weight loss: 0

Average: (4 weeks in)  0!!! ugh

Exercise-   Exercise was non existent again. I clearly need to start walking on my treadmill.

Juicing- 0!! That is a major no good! Shake your head at me! We ran out of groceries for juicing and we just kept putting it off. But juicing will be back in full swing on Tuesday (V-day!)

My pills- I was really good about taking my pills! There was 3 days that I didn't take any. But the rest I took them all! I count that as a success!

update on my cycle status-  Still no ovulation. :( I am a little worried because we are on cycle day 30. But I will still have hope, I am sure the not juicing was not helping. So hopefully this week i will shock my system into ovulation! By taking all my pills and juicing! And eating vegan!

overall-  This week I didn't think I did bad in the eating department at all! In fact most nights during this week I didn't even eat dinner and went to bed hungry! Another day I only ate twice! So I know I was in my calorie range majority of the week! Which is why I am wondering if some of the weight isn't me being bloated from not having enough water! I am hoping things will resume to normal and I can force myself to do some treadmill time, and stay in my calorie range.  This upcoming week will be a challenge, because I am also sick. :(

Sex, Marriage& fairytales

I love this poem. I can't even tell you how much I love this video!! It is so awesome! And so true!!!





LOVE these quotes from this poem:


-If your marriage rests on anything but Jesus it's resting on something broken.


-If our dollars were honest it would say " in pleasure we trust"


-Pursue Jesus as your foundation before you get under the covers


-Til death do us part really means until the feelings go away


-imagine if a parent took that perspective with their kids


-Its not the love that sustains the promise, its the promise that sustains the love.


- some guys propose on their knee, Jesus proposed on a cross!



YOU HAVE TO WATCH THE VIDEO, SERIOUSLY, IT IS SO GOOD.  It just speaks to me! I am very passionate about marriage, and I love learning all about marriage, the good and the bad.


for more marriage posts from me you can go here.

Weekly weigh in Jan 30th- Feb 5th

weight loss this week: +1.5  (BOO)

Total weight loss: -1 lbs  (better than nothing!) 

Average: (3 weeks in)  Too little to even calculate right now! 

Exercise-   Exercise was non existent this past week! I was working a lot and then went to Wisconsin Dells. And I wanted to relax, not exercise. I knew it was going to be a bad week, but I really should have forced myself, I feel like I keep relearning this same lesson with weight loss... I have to force myself to do it even when I don't feel like it, because that is what weight loss is about. 

Juicing- I can't exactly remember how much I juiced, but I think I juiced at least 3 or 4 times, which is decent for me. Not quite my goal, but I am not disappointed in myself either. 

My pills- I have been bad at taking my pills again, but I have them reloaded, and today is a new day.. :) 

update on my cycle status-  Still no ovulation.I am on cycle day 24. My sisters doctor told her he had never seen anyone ovulate past cycle day 25, but last month I ovulated on cycle day 27 or 28, so I still am hoping and praying. 

overall-  I am pretty disappointed in myself. I let my emotions get involved and ate too much ice cream and sat around eating chips too often. I knew the weekend in Wisconsin Dells wouldn't be conducive to losing weight, but I thought I could lose a pound during the week and maintain on the weekend. That didn't happen, I do know that I ate a lot of salt and processed foods so I have high hopes for next week and that I can lose my 1 lbs plus the 1.5 lbs that I gained this week! But I will be happy with any loss! Lesson learned.. don't give in to emotions weight loss is hard work, not done by eating ice cream and chips! Oh and also on Tuesday and Wednesday at work we had a co worker leaving and celebrated them with food, LOTS of calories there too! I know next week will definitely be a week I lose! I am aiming for 2 lbs! 

some seriousness

This weekend I decided I wanted to do some more self portraits! They are actually a lot of fun! They are a little more a lot more work than just taking pictures, but I am still extremely uncomfortable in front of the camera. I am getting used to taking my own pictures, now its when I am with people I look really awkward! HAHA. I enjoy seeing myself in front of the camera every now and then. It is kind of fun to play model once in a while! :) 

I was sitting in a chair while taking these at arms length away, we were in Wisconsin Dells, WI for the weekend and I was watching a family unload their car. I was also watching some birds in the trees. That sounds really lame, but I have been so busy lately that sitting there doing that, felt really nice! (And I promise I only did that for like 30 minutes!) 

Did you notice I cut my hair and highlighted it?!