from my understanding

so the other day I posted about my last doctor visit and was basically (confirmation ultrasound on the 13th) diagnosed with PCOS. I was sad and upset about it. Bummed out, well today I have kind of gained a whole new perspective on it. My sister has PCOS, and in my (unprofessional) opinion, has it a lot worse than I do(sorry sis, don't want that to sound mean or hurtful or anything, you know I love you) with that being said she has been trying for 4 years naturally with no success. Which was a bummer for me, since the husband is pretty much against me doing fertility meds, at least for the now and the near future. I was sad about that too. All my life I couldn't wait to be married, now I have a wonderful husband who i love and adore, and I couldn't wait to be pregnant and have kids ( call me crazy, I have always looked forward to being pregnant since the thought of kids crossed my mind which was when I met Jordan! :)) anyways.. back on track here.. so I was sad, and down, and didn't quite understand it. Well turns out I know someone else besides my sister who has PCOS, and she has had a baby naturally! That totally encouraged me! Even more so when I started harassing  asking her questions about her "story" we pretty much have the same story! Except she had a bit more of an acne problem than I have! Although I probably have more of a weight problem than she has. Either way, very similar stories! That made me excited! (Kind of funny to think that I get excited about the possibility that I may be able to get pregnant when all my life I assumed I could always get pregnant) She has controlled her PCOS with diet and exercise! Now I totally get that it is easier said than done but yay! From my understanding PCOS is kind of like a mild form of diabetes or pre diabetes. I don't know much about it yet, but that is what I understand. It causes (lack of a better word) obesity an some other things which in turn affects fertility (obesity and a couple other things it affects) *from my understanding* follicles grow and release eggs which is ovulation. PCOS the follicles grow, but don't release or mature(or something) which is the reason for infertility. if anyone has a better understanding or better explanation feel free to comment!! Love to here it!

anyways, with all this new perspective, I have been reminded of how I am praying for the motivation to lose weight and to get healthy. Well maybe this is what I have been praying for! Sure, I want everything the easy way and want my cake and to eat it too. But if I want to be a mother and be able to carry a child, and do it naturally and sometime in the near future I will have to basically eliminate sugar and no processed foods(well little processed foods) and exercise. I see a prayer being answered in there.

I am super excited that I now have a different perspective and a much happier and healthier perspective on my current infertility.

I had to add this pic because it makes me smile. :)